I suppose it’s natural for everyone to become nostalgic at the end of the year, and I’m no exception. I was recently running through my blog posts just to see what I was blogging about at the beginning of the year, up until now. I’ve been blogging here for a little over a year, but I really started the bulk of it, and really started being dedicated to it in January.
There have been a lot of changes this year. I started the year off thinking it would be busy. I didn’t realize just how busy it would be; how hectic it ended up being. All in all, I guess I would have to say that it has been a good year. I encountered someone not too long ago who, when asked how he was doing that day responded with an electic smile, “I can’t complain. I’m still here!” He knew that any day that he was blessed to wake up to was a good day, and I love that attitude. So, in reviewing the year, I have to be thankful for it, even if the end has been somewhat less than ideal. Isn’t that called the law of immediacy or something? The principle that the last thing that happens in a given situtation is the thing you remember most. You know what I mean. A lousy end makes one believe that maybe the whole was just as lousy, when really it wasn’t.
Looking back at my posts, I remember the craziness of decorating a cake for my brother and sister-in-law’s rehearsal dinner, and how important that seemed. I remember trips and posts for friends. I read posts about the loss of my soon-to-be-ex-father-in-law (divorce is STILL not final, but will be soon). There are posts that were written in happy times, of a happy marriage, that are sad to me now, but I wouldn’t change them for the world–my past is a part of who I am. My little one went to Kindergarten and is a “big kid” in her own estimation, and I struggled with that, but now she’s thriving and can’t wait to go back to school…and honestly, I’ll be happy to see her going back. She loves it so much. There are book and movie reviews, and silly bumperstickers I’ve shot pics of with my camera phone.
I started my blog to be a place where I could “scribble” down any thought that entered my head, or any that I deemed worthy to put to “paper,” even if I was the only one reading it. And at some point during the year, though, something happened. Right when part of my life was falling apart, I found a new direction…or maybe that direction found me here on the blog. I began to write more about music, and that’s what my blog has evolved into. It’s still my “Random Ramblings and Musings of Everything,” but it’s mainly about music.
I’m not sure where this new, revised direction will take me in the New Year, but I’m excited for it. I don’t know exactly when my divorce fiasco will be over with (certainly sometime in January), but I’m excited for that as well. I don’t know what the New Year will bring, but if 2010 is any indication, it’s going to be a rollercoaster of a ride…
And I’m excited to be on it.
Happy New Year!